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New Story Out: His Embrace

“Though he had made no sound in coming, she knew he had appeared. His very scent enveloped her, musky and warm like an intoxicating drink. She shut her eyes, surrendering herself to his embrace.”

Dear all,

Go read my gothic flash fiction story ‘His Embrace’ over on Love Letters to Poe. It’s a quick, free read, and it might just be my favorite of the stories I’ve had published so far.

– Tim

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New Story Out: A Murder of Crows

“Everywhere she went, she saw another omen, or another sign of something that did not fully congeal with reality as she had always understood it. Simple things, like the way crows were always staring at her, or the cockroach that crawled out of a frozen microwave meal packet, or the violent thunder that began one night, after a sweltering summer that had seen next to no rain.”

Check out my short (and very weird) horror story ‘A Murder of Crows’. It’s available FOR FREE on Dread Imaginings. So click that link and give it a read!

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Short Story: Ka

For your reading pleasure, here is a short story I wrote earlier in the year:


Ka

Ramesses II stood looking out across his city, the seat of his great kingdom. It vanished somewhere beyond the horizon, stretching farther than any mortal man could see.

In the distant west, Ra’s sun-barque was descending into the Duat, bathing Pi-Ramesses in its fading red and honey-golden light. Soon the God would die, and undertake his twelve-hour journey through the Underworld, only to reemerge anew, reborn, in the east. He would rise once more, and he would cast the vast and boundless kingdom in his glory yet again.

The pharaoh smiled. “King of Kings am I”, he thought, mentally quoting a phrase he’d had inscribed at one of his many monuments. “If anyone would know how great I am, let him surpass one of my works.”

The sun boat vanished into the Duat. Night fell. The great pharaoh turned away.

He froze. A man stood within his bed chamber. He had crept nearly all the way across the floor to Ramesses, a weapon in his hand. There was a tiny, motionless pause, giving the pharaoh just enough time to register that it was a serpent-headed blade, a werhekau commonly used in funeral rites.

A strange weapon for an assassin, he thought, and then the visitor was moving forward, striking Ramesses in the chest before the pharaoh could call out for his guards. He gasped, feeling the weapon pierce his heart.

A slow smile wrinkled his age-weathered face.

The would-be assassin pulled out the blade, his expression unreadable in the room’s dark gloom. Ramesses could just make out his eyes, affixed to the open wound. He looked down himself, smiling with satisfaction as it closed, flesh knitting itself together in the span of a breath. Then he raised his head, and called for the guards.

The assassin turned and rushed for a window on the opposite side of the room. He was already out before the first man had even reached the pharaoh’s side, carried away by the night itself.

Merneptah, Ramesses’ thirteenth-born son and heir, entered behind the guards.

‘What’s going on?’ he asked. ‘Father, are you all right?’

‘An assassin, nothing more.’

Merneptah turned to the guards. ‘Why are you lingering? I want him caught, and the palace secured!’ He turned back. ‘Did he harm you?’

Ramesses merely shook his head. He was Ramesses II, Ozymandias the Great; the eternal ruler of Egypt! Had the man thought that no other assassin had tried what he had in the near century the pharaoh had been alive?

‘No,’ the pharaoh told his seventy-year old son, relishing the short flicker of disappointment in his eyes. ‘He did not make a scratch.’


Sennedjem’s hands trembled as he gently scraped the blood into the large tub. Most of it had come off of the blade, and much of what remained was dried to flakes, but a small quantity of the blood was liquid.

The liquid stuff would probably hold the most potent ka.

When the werhekau was clean, he stepped back, pulling off the cloth he had tied around his head. It was slick with sweat. Hopefully, none of it had gone into the mixture in the tub.

He stared at it for a moment. Wet clay, retrieved from the Nile basin, with a few splotches of red on top. The great God Khnum used the very same silt, the very same clay, to craft humans. Now, Sennedjem intended to make a man of his own.

It was not the sculpting itself that worried Sennedjem. He had long worked with clay and pottery, had practiced making clay figures of men; the small, hot room was filled with his last few attempts. The difficult part would be animating the thing, giving it ka; a soul.

The pharaoh’s ka.

On walls and decorations that Sennedjem had studied, on the inside of tombs, old and new, a pharaoh’s ka was often depicted as a double, a replica of the man. He would need to make a perfect replica. He’d need recreate Ramesses’ ka to bypass his protections. . .

Sennedjem had always heard the myths of the pharaoh’s immortality, even before his armies had rolled over Kadesh. There, Sennedjem’s father’s family had perished; all that they owned burnt to the ground by Ramesses’ armies. His father had fled, barely more than a child, and had vowed revenge.

Now, when his father was long in the grave, and Sennedjem was old and past his prime, and without children of his own. . . that revenge would come.

But Ramesses II was immortal. Unkillable. According to legend, he hadn’t even bothered to put on his corslet before many of his later battles, knowing he could not be harmed.

Of course, such things were said of all the kings of Egypt. Even Sennedjem had doubted it. . . until tonight, when he had driven a sword through the pharaoh’s heart, and the man—the same man who had killed Sennedjem’s father’s father, destroyed everything their family had owned—had smiled and nonchalantly healed his wound.

Sennedjem shuddered, pausing in his work. No, unlike those other kings, Ramesses could not be killed by any other’s hand. Sennedjem had studied these things, had studied magic, first under his father’s tutelage and then his own. He had been to tombs and temples, reading carefully the different spells etched in the walls and coffins; had hoarded every version of the Book of Dead that he could buy or steal.

It had to do with effigies, he thought. Ramesses II had far more sculptures of himself, far more monuments than any king before him. He carved over their images with his own, had obliterated their aged and shallow reliefs, replacing their names with his, driven deep into the stone. He had built or remade temples to his honor, had made monuments greater by far than any built before.

He had eternalized himself in stone, and so long as the stone stood, he was eternal in his flesh as well.

How, then, did one kill such a man—who had made covenants with the Gods, and with the deep rock of the earth itself? Sennedjem doubted that it could be done, not without tearing down every effigy of him that rose out of the ground.

But there had to be a weakness. There had to be a way—some blind spot in the arcane wards. . . like, say, if the Pharaoh was struck down by his own hand. Or by the hand of his own image.

His effigy. His double. His ka.

So Sennedjem worked, throwing all the hours of the night, and all the skill he’d developed over the decades, and all the magic he could muster, into the forming of this clay. The clay that held some of the pharaoh’s blood and essence.

There was so little of it. . . the red droplets of blood were invisible now that he had mixed them in. But they were there, a tiny echo of Ramesses’ ka. Perhaps it’d be enough to fool the protections. It had to be!

When he was done, Sennedjem stood away and stared at the thing he had created. It would have to dry, still, but the cruel features, the sneer of disdainful command, were unmistakably those of Ramesses II. The likeness seemed far greater than even Sennedjem’s skill would allow. Perhaps, he thought, that means the magic is at work already.

It still remained to animate the thing. He wiped his hands and walked over to his collection of tablets and papyrus scrolls; a small fortune in texts, amassed over decades of his life, and his father’s before. He studied them closely, though he knew the rites by heart.

He would use spells from the Book of the Dead, a version of the Opening of the Mouth ritual, meant to enable the dead to take in life and nourishment, and to speak during their judgement. These spells were meant to wake a man, that he may undertake the journey in the Duat; that he may show the Gods his worthiness and live again.

Sennedjem would make this clay man live, though it had never lived before and died. The chances of it working seemed so slim. . .

A dead man had no ka. It was the essence of the living, the shard of magic that had made man’s soul at the creation. And this clay effigy had only a shadow of a ka. Even with the spells from the Book of the Dead it would never live, not without fuel to burn and make into a new life.

With a trembling voice and a pounding heart, Sennedjem began the ritual of the Opening of the Mouth. He had all the tools he needed for it, including the very same ritual werhekau, the snake-head blade, which he had used to retrieve the pharaoh’s blood.

When he was done, he held the weapon in his hands, looking at the carefully carved hilt. He’d made it himself, and yet he had never stopped to consider how well it was made. And the ka-effigy, too, was beautifully crafted, as was the furniture and pottery that filled the room. . . all made by his own hands.

He had made a vow to his father, a vow to pursue his revenge. Yet, in that pursuit, he had developed no small talent for these things. . . had even lived quite comfortably off of his artisan work.

It seemed almost a shame to let it all go. After all, it was not his life that had been destroyed by Ramesses II; certainly not to the extent that his father’s had.

Sennedjem sighed. He gripped the hilt a little tighter, dropping to his knees before the clay likeness of the man he’d dedicated his life to destroying.

In one unnervingly simple motion, he slit his own throat, releasing his ka to fuel the birth of his creation. The last thing he saw was his blood, red as the evening sun, splattered across the pharaoh’s face.


Ramesses II came awake with a start. He had been haunted by nightmares for these past seventy or eighty years—since around the time he’d come to power—but this one had been especially vivid, especially stark. Even seeing the early-day sunlight stream through his windows, his heart continued to beat.

He tried to recall exactly what the dream had been about, but it was slipping away, fast. His dreams were as ethereal as each new year that passed, vanishing quicker than the last.

He sighed, sitting slowly up. Though he had barely aged in all those years, he felt the cramps of ageing creeping up. His back ached terribly these days—no longer was he the proud, straight-backed commander depicted in the statues—and his hands would sometimes clench or shake so bad he couldn’t hold a sword.

It was at its worst in the mornings. He knew that many of these complaints would go away during the day, easing with every hour that the sun shone on his name, carved into the great slabs of stone that were spread across the reaches of his kingdom. He knew that relief would come. . . and yet, in these early hours, it hardly even felt worth rising.

Still, he crawled onto his feet and hobbled to the eastern-facing window, basking in the early light of Ra. The God had been reborn, and would once more invigorate the pharaoh with his blessing.

Ramesses stretched, feeling his ninety-year-old bones pop slowly into place. Perhaps one day, after another century or two, his will would fail, and he’d step freely into the Duat, like Ra did every night.

But not today.

Having made this resolution, the pharaoh smiled. Ozymandias would live and rule another day, and see another sunset and sunrise over his kingdom.

Though he was half-blinded staring at the sun, he saw a movement out of the corner of his eye, and spun.

A man stood, in one of the darker corners of his room, dressed in a very similar—probably the same—hood to the one worn by the last assassin. The only difference was that he carried a long dagger, rather than the ritual werhekau.

Some people just don’t know when to give up, Ramesses thought. He smiled. Perhaps a bit of bloodshed would stimulate him.

‘You’re back,’ he said, as casually as if he’d commented on the weather. The assassin didn’t move.

He was. . . eerily still. Ramesses frowned, still blinking sunlight from his eyes, and squinted at the man. He didn’t seem to move at all; his shoulders did not rise and fall with breath.

But that couldn’t be. . .

Suddenly, Ramesses felt less sure of himself. Keeping his eyes on the man, he sidestepped to the wall, where several swords and other weapons were mounted. He grabbed one, feeling the familiar weight in his palm. How long ago did I last hold a blade?

Still, his old reflexes were there. He gave the sword a playful spin, beckoning the intruder. Finally, the assassin looked up, his hood falling back, and Ramesses froze.

It was like looking at his own reflection—or rather, a strange, younger version of his own reflection, sucked free of all color. The entire face was a uniform shade of beige-brown, even the lips, the brows—the eyes! Like clay, perfectly carved to look like him.

Even at this distance, he could make out tiny, intricate lines and lashes, perfected down to miniscule detail.

‘Guards!’ Ramesses shouted. The duplicate rushed forth, moving at an unexpected speed. Ramesses barely managed to knock aside it’s blow—the force of it sent numbing shockwaves through his hand and arm. He stumbled back, barely keeping his grip around the hilt.

The assassin struck again, tearing a gash across Ramesses’ chest. He felt hot blood gush from it—and to his utter horror, the wound continued to bleed, rather than close up. He took another step back, staring with bewilderment at the thing attacking him. His back hit the wall, knocking into the weapon mountings. Several blades clattered to the floor, cutting his skin.

Beyond the assassin, the guards were rushing into the room, but they were too late. The double’s hand darted out again—the clean part of the blade caught a flash of the morning sunlight still streaming into the window—and Ramesses felt a terrible pain as the weapon clove into his jaw, cutting through bone.

It had been so long since he had felt true pain.

Then the guards were on the assassin, and he fell to the hard floor, shattering into a hundred shards. The living Ramesses fell as well, clutching his jaw.

His ears were ringing, and his vision was already blurring. He could survive this, it was not a lethal wound—but why had he been hurt at all, has Ra abandoned me—and he just had to. . . had to. . .

His son was in the room. Merneptah bent over him, blocking the sun. He met the pharaoh’s eyes.

‘Don’t worry, father,’ he said, his words just legible to Ramesses’ ears. ‘I’ll make sure you are treated, with all the care that you deserve.’ And even as the pharaoh’s vision faded, he could see the glint of a smile in his son’s aged eyes.

The End

NaNoWriMo – Week 4

November has passed, and that means it’s time for my final NaNoWriMo Post. (Actually I had intended to post it yesterday, but my internet was down.)

My novel didn’t quite hit 50’000 words, simply because I ran out of story on November 26th, giving it a final word count of 43’488. There are some scenes that I shortened at the time of writing them, and one I couldn’t figure out where to slot in, so the word count will most likely grow in the second draft.

For now, however, I just need to take a break from the book; in part because I need to shift focus onto my studies, and in part because it’s too recent for me to be able to judge fairly. I’ll read through it and begin work on revisions sometime in January.

So, yeah. It’s not quite the 100k words that my last novel turned out at, but it’s not bad either. Overall I’d say NaNoWriMo 2020 was a success.

-Tim

Addendum:

My short horror(~ish) story ‘A Murder of Crows’ released today, so if you’re interested you can read it at: http://www.dreadimaginings.com/a-murder-of-crows-by-tim-sturk.html

NaNoWriMo – Week 3

Three weeks later and my story is resting at 40’335 words. I’ve reached the climax and there are perhaps a few thousand more words left at most. There are also some earlier scenes I should expand a bit more but skipped over at the time—but on the whole it’ll be a short book.

I do have some ideas for a continuation, but it would be set after enough of a jump in time that I’d have to sit down and do a lot more historical research, so it’s not something I would be able to start on right away after I finish this book.

The important thing, of course, is that the book I am writing is going well. And it is. I haven’t fallen behind the par NaNo word count a single time so far, which I’m pretty proud of. And the book itself is… not terrible (or won’t be, after a few important revisions).

To anyone else doing NaNoWriMo this year: I hope it’s going well. Hang in there for the final stretch.

-Tim

Addendum:

On an unrelated note, I have a short story titled A Murder of Crows coming out December 1st on dreadimaginings.com, and a piece of gothic fan fiction coming out with Love Letters to Poe in January, so be on the look-out if you’re interested in those. Both will be free to read on their respective publication sites.

NaNoWriMo – Week 2

Here we are, then. Half-way through November and my word count is just over the half-way mark. 25’000 words that feel, for the moment, like a complete and utter mess. Hopefully I’ll be able to fix it in revisions, though.

Judging by my very vague outline, I’m nearing the half-way point of that, as well, so this novel might not turn out to be much longer than 50’000 words, at least not on its first draft. I think I’m all right with that.

This week was definitely tougher than the last, but I’m proud of myself for staying above the daily goal.

-Tim

NaNoWriMo – Week 1

After about a full week, the word count of my NaNoWriMo project is resting at 16’095, well ahead of the projected 13’336-word average for 8 days in. If you follow me on Twitter (@SturkTim), you may have seen that I’ve been tweeting daily word count updates.

Despite the relatively high count, the novel itself still feels a bit. . . uncertain. Tonally, for one; where I intended it to be Adult, it feels a bit more like a New Adult book (if you believe in the value of that age category; I’m aware that there has been some debate).

Also, it feels at once faster and slower pace than my last novel, which is weird. I think it has to do in part with the fact that (this first part, at least) is spaced over a longer time period, and in part with the fact that there is so far much less urgency. So far many of the chapters are built around character, rather than plot.

In future revisions I may go back and look for ways to raise the stakes even in these early sections, though I’m hard-pressed to think how I might do that. That’s a concern for the future, though; the beauty of NaNoWriMo is such that you can leave worrying about issues like these for the second draft, focusing for now only on getting words down on the page. Indeed, I’ve already made some notes for lesser changes I would like to make, and then rather than make them right away, I’ve pushed through and continued writing as if they had been made already.

I think that’s a valuable method, and my main advice for anyone who’s also doing NaNoWriMo–or even writing a novel outside of November. I think in many cases, especially for early authors, it is best to finish a project even if it feels like it is broken or just not working for whatever reason.

In short, week 1 of NaNoWriMo has gone pretty well. It helps that I haven’t had any major university exams or assignments, of course; we’ll see how well I do once they start ramping up over the following month.

-Tim

NaNoWriMo 2020

This year I intend to participate in NaNoWriMo. It’ll be my third year in a row, last years effort having produced the pirate novel I am currently querying. It was an immensely satisfying experience, even if the 50’000 words I wrote last November proved to only constitute that book’s first half; the rest of it written more slowly over December and January.

This year I have some rather fun ideas for novel, for which I’ve made a vague, bare-bones outline. So far, its synopsis goes something like this:

Injured in the Thirty Years’ War, a Swedish soldier is inadvertently initiated into an ancient force of power. Forced to adjust to a world of dark magic and sinister schemes, he is given an impossible task: to protect the lives (and very souls) of the Swedish king and his young heir Kristina.

Hopefully, it will turn out well. It had better turn out well, considering how much research a historical novel takes. I’d hate to think of all that time as being wasted.

I intend to post a weekly update of my progress on it throughout November, so if that’s something that sounds interesting to you—stay tuned. If it doesn’t sound interesting to you, well. . . I guess you’ll have to stay tuned for November to end and for me to go back to my usually scheduled inactivity. At some point I might turn this site into a proper blog, but it will probably not be in 2020.

Stay safe—and, of course, have a happy Halloween next week!

-Tim

A poem about autumn

The autumn's bittersweet for sure, and cold
But capable of so much more:
There is such beauty in decay,
Within the many colours of a leaf
As it nears death and falls away.

It is a grey time, autumn, and a time of death;
Of langour, and a time of fading breath--
But in that dying breath Life's all the more alive,
All the more brimming in the face of that inevitable knife.

And even Love can never be so deep,
As when it's tinged with sorrow, loss, and grief.
Nor can the red and golden leaves shine quite so bright
As when they're contrasted against a grey and fading sky.